For so long I didn't update my blog right?? It bcs i'm very busy with my matriculation college. Yahh.. I'm a bit busy,and also very stressed out bcs the college just do not what i was imagined. Tonight, i want to start back my story. And tonight,I don't know why,but emm.. When I listened to Yiruma,Kiss the rain,it's remind me of someone that i think i cannot forget him no matter what i do. I wish I can erase him from my mind as easy I delete my old picture from my gallery. But it does not undergoes like I wish. He keep running in my mind,he keep telling me that i cannot forget him. Yes, I admit, at my college, there are plenty of people who are more handsome than he is. But, in my heart, although his face was full of 'jerawat' or not as handsome as other people,i will keep love him. I also wanna admit one more thing which is, i often look at aother boys at my college but it was just emm.. just 'ohh..looking damn good.' but when he disappear,that feeling does not presence anymore but my prince charming face get into my mind everytime.
Aku pernah jugak terpikir kenapa dia tak pernah nk pandang aku. Kenapa dia tak boleh jadikan aku kawan dia? Kenapa dia tak treat aku mcm org lain. Yes,that kenapa yg aku nk tanya dia one fine day.
Bila umur kau dah masuk 18 tahun,kau akan fikir,ohhh..kau dah besar,dah boleh kahwin.. Yes,aku dah boleh kahwin,but when aku fikir pasal kahwin je,dia dulu yg aku nampak even takde kat depan mata. But,ibu n ayah mcm tak suka. Ayah cakap,kahwin after u get ur master. ya. its quite impossible right? Hermmm.. Donnolah nak. Aku selalu ingat dia,tp aku tak tahu dia ingat aku ke tak. Katanya dia dah ade yg punya.yelah,muka cemtu takkan takde siapa nakkan?? Takpe,aku redha kalau aku bukan dgn dia. Aku simpan perasaan ni drpd aku mula kenal dia masa dia jadi pengawas sekolah rendah dulu. Dari situ aku mula admire dia,bawak ke sekolah menengah dapat satu sekolah dgn dia.
Happy tak tahu mcm mana,and sedih pon ade,sbb dia takkan layan aku pon. Tetiba,form 4 dapat satu kelas, just kept looking at his back bcs aku duduk belakang sekali. Mungkin ni not make any sense right? but it was what i going through until know, 2016. yes!! from 2008-2016.
I Love You
shazmin